Fine.

Between John and Spencer's comments yelling at me earlier, along with this wedding between people being stalked (which Spencer was a guest of, it seems), I've decided to take back what I said earlier;


I'll deal with the whole being Stalked thing. Ignoring it would probably get me killed anyways, so I might as well (grudgingly, mind you,) accept it.


There's one thing I'm not taking back though, and that's finding Lucian. I'll repeat what I said before; he left on his own. I don't know what's going on in his head, (if anything goes through it, I really do wonder sometimes), but it made him leave.


Besides "'protectingbyrunning'.blogspot.com", that has to mean something, right? He...in his own way he thinks he's helping.


That's fine with me. I'm not going to go running after someone if they don't want me to. So stop telling me to find him. Unless the words come from his own mouth (or posts, whatever,) I won't set off after him. Okay? Good.


I'm still not ready to put up in detail what happened with Daren, but I'll try working on it in small bits. Everything that happened those two weeks. Starting with what happened with Emma...


I can't think about this anymore. Damn it. Not yet.

What?

Pretending that this doesn't exist doesn't work so well when the other person on this blog puts up a post with a link to a dead blog and you get an email notification over it.


I have no idea what he's up to, and I want no part in it.

Goodbye, Ray.

Maybe...

This will all just stop. I'd give someone my left arm if it meant that this...insanity would just stop. You know what I mean?


I feel like...things will...go back to normal if I never touch this again. I'm still frustrated with Lucian. Not because he didn't tell me about Daren (well, he didn't, but that's not the point), but because he ran off like that. He got me out of there and then ran.


Does he think he's playing hero? Saving the day and flying away? I don't get it.


But he's gone.


He's....why? I don't get it. He's still posting on here.


I don't know what's running through this guy's mind.


Maybe one day this will all make sense...but for now I need to take a break.


Hopefully a permanent break. I can only hope, right?